Wednesday, already, and I have finished my "tests"! I know they know but I don't know! So this is a bit like betting after the cards have been delt. The CAT scan only takes 20 minutes and is like a movie projector X-Ray machine! The test causes cancer! Before the test one is required to strip down (that is the fun part!), dress in some hospital gown, and slowly drink some concocktion over a 45 minute period. You are not alone. There were two ladies there, cute and nervous in their hospital gowns. We were all at our best and dressed for the occation! I don't find it difficult to meet nor talk to people. "My name is Jerry and I have CANCER", I introduce myself, "what are you in for?" Well, it is like a prison in a way, we are certainly "serving time" and it is not like we chose this! It became an introduction to chemo-therapy (what a horrible combination of words that is!!! I like to think of "therapy" as a gentle massage, maybe in a nice hotel!). One lady was in the process of being diagnosed, this test was to confirm cancer. She was terrified at the prospect of chemo! I do hope I reassured her that this isn't so bad! Truely I have done much worse, but maybe for shorter time periods. I still have some hair I pointed out to her! and I have met a bevy of beautiful nurses!!! Yes, it will make you philosophical for periods of time but we need to examine our lives from time to time and this chemo provides that opportunity! I have always thought I would like to be hit by a cement truck and just have the lights go out, but now I am not so sure! One more blue sky! One more garden flower! Just one more of everything before I am done! Or at least the opportunity to be greatful for all the experiences that I have enjoyed, and thankful I was not a grain of sand forever! No, chemo is not that bad, and it may be working! I won't find out until next Monday, but I will be sure to let you know! Either way, I am grateful for what I have had, or will have in time to come! The tomato picture is for a friend of mine, to encourage him to build a greenhouse!
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