Hello. I have not posted anything for ages. I have been a bit more active these past months, trying hard to get back to painting more regularly and eventually trying to figure out a way to promote my art. I have some more bad news as far as my health goes and will probably soon affect how much I paint for awhile. I have been diagnosed with endometrial cancer. It might even be a pretty nasty serous adenocarcinoma which I have no idea what that is and refuse to look it up as I was already told it is quite serious and I dont want to scare myself anymroe than I am already am. I figure it is not for certain anyway and right at the moment I seem Ok so I am just living in now and in the moment and right now I am ok. That is where it is at. I have surgery though on February 20th and they are doing a complete hysterectomy taking my not just my uterus but my ovaries and my cervix as well as a lot lymph nodes likley. So I am worried how bad the surgery will set me back activity wise I want to keep painting but I know I dont generally paint when i am in a lot of pain or really tired, so figure there will definintely be a perioud of recovery where I dont paint. I am not certain if we are allowed to post nudity but I painting this last night, totally digital on ArtRage...I call it Naked with my Cancer Team....it is a pretty good self portrait, and yes, I am rather fat...and it doesnt feel very good when you have to get naked before your doctors and they talk about you like you are not even really there or as if you are an object or worse, you are just a pile of fat cells and nothing more...or that perhaps you are the cancer...or the cancer is you. They dont mean to they try very hard to be compassionate I can tell but for them, this is an everyday routine thing...everyday they treat cancer...all kinds some easily treated and some dangerous...but it doesnt matter it is still and every day thing beacuse dangerous cancers hit people lots of people everyday and they come to places like UW Oncology deptartment in Seattle, WA to be treated with state-of-the -art treatments..I am getting robotic assisted surgery myself. They will fill my abdomen up with air and a robot hands will enter in very tiny incisions and do the work although my surgeon will guide it it is not totally robotic surgery..she is the genius behind it. And I can tell she is very competent she definitely anyway has an air of confidence which does make you feel better too. I hope anyway, this will all work out well and I will be painting for a few more years anyway. However right now I feel threatened and I guess, well it is life threatening and we just dont know yet...I will let you all know as soon as I know. In the mean time, for those of you who do pray I will accept prayers of any type for what the heck, they must all be positive if they are praying for my healing. Me I dont care too much what name you use for G-d and I dont think Gd cares really either...for that matter. I think for the most part we just make up names for a G-d none of us can understand or really even conceive of....a power much greater than any of us can fathom. Here is my painting. And if it is not legal to post nudity I apologize you can unpost it and I wont do it again...I just consider it art and not anything like pornography so anyway, it seems to speak of how I have been feeling after seeing my treatment team in Seattle last week.
