i once existed i once lived but the throws of the world burned me, scorned me and i was sent here to this forbidden place to this filthy place to this, my new 'home' here i pray here i search for something called 'god' for someone called 'god' but he does not answer why does he not answer? i ask forgiveness yet i am shunned plagued with this place damned in this place i shall never be home i shall never see home those pearly gates do not shine for me those shining eyes do not comfort me i am left here forever in desolation in this place i fall in this place i rot in this place i die may 'god' have mercy for my denouncing him