4 stages of drinking. self pity,anger,sick,and passed out.it became clear what i was doing wasn't working.depressed,stressed,tired,angry,worn out,ill,etc. my wife called me "doom and gloom".change came.it was quick.emotionally painful.it sobered me up. i stopped the poison.i can feel again. i am putting my life on paper,in words and pictures.with angels and demons. hope to publish,but for now just find myself and who i am. all my pictures have expressed some moment of my life,for good or bad. this one i hope lays to rest a side of me i don't like.