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Blog Entry - January 16, 2008

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 23:51:15 MST

"Live It" I used to wonder
What it would be like
Dream about
How it would be Sometimes
You can dream
For so long
When it's time
To wake up
It's hard
To snap out of dreaming
And realize I don't have to dream
Anymore Written: January 17, 2008

Blog Entry - January 16, 2008

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 23:48:57 MST

"Cut" It was night
Dark on this road
Hardly any light
But it's where the Lord wanted me
I kept walking, losing hope
For signs of life From the corner of eye
Moonlight
Coming through the trees
Who did I see standing there A woman, so beautiful
Staring
She called me
Without saying a word
I detoured, to follow
Ignoring His call She moved slowly
Yet swiftly
I couldn't reach her
I decided to try all I could
To touch her Through the trees
Through the leaves
Muddy sand
Like a jungle or swamp
Moonlight, hazy I came to an opening
There she stood
Calling me
Without saying a word
Who knew where I was now She moved so swiftly
I hurried to catch her
But then...
The ground gave way
Beneath me Through dirt, vines
Wood, I fell
And fell
And fell Hitting my head on metal
Branches
Over
And over
Did I have time to scream As my back hit a huge branch
I did flips
Landing on my back
To a distinct sound Glass
I looked around
As I lay there
Broken, shattered
Glass, covered the ground I screamed
And screamed
And screamed
Staring at from where I fell
Into darkness, miles away Every movement
Brought more pain
I wanted to be still
But I had to get
Out of there Then I held my breathe
Because I saw
The woman I had followed
Standing there
Over me Suddenly I was afraid
As I looked into her eyes
So dark, too dark
Black, sinking in flashes
Darkness beneath her skin
A skeleton of... Him
Not a woman at all
A demon
In disguise
Transformed into
Such beauty I had been tricked
Fooled
By deception
From my eyes
Too late to see
The beauty, only skin deep I felt even more pain
I started to cry
As the demon smiled at me
I realized where I am
Is not where God is
Where was I Through groans
Glass sticking into my skin
Bleeding, aching
As pieces fell from my head
I stood up, on my own No shoes
Barefoot
I walked across the glass
To the wall of branches
Vines, dirt
I had to climb Passed the metal boards
I hit before
Passed the huge trees
Crying
No one else to blame
But me At last
To the top
Back to the road
Oh no...
To His Throne I held my head low
Walking through the great hall
Hiding my face from His light
Ashamed to say a word
Embarrassed, no place else to go Tears fell from His eyes
I felt Him come close to me
Looking at me
Head to toe
Saddened by the look of me What happened to you
My child, My son
You were doing so well
A new season has begun I...I...
I failed You again
I took my eyes off of You
I followed this woman
This demon still comes I thought he was a she
I was wrong
I fell in a ditch
My progress undone Now I'm cut
Bruised and broken
I decided to come home
I'm ready for my punishment
No matter what it is He put His arm around me
Led me to this huge crowd
Standing there in white gowns
Finally looking familiar to me This is your family
These are your friends
You are in the Body of Christ
Never walk alone again They will help you
They will comfort you
But I can't face them Lord
Not like this It's okay
Everyone makes mistakes
Everyone falls
But they get up again
Never to fall in
The same ditch again I don't know
I don't think I can win
My mind too far gone
My heart too cold
My soul too dark My child
It's been predestined
I have spoken
This is not the end for you Jesus, unlike before
Please help me
To trust You
I don't want to fight
Anymore... Written: January 1, 2008

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:59:22 MST

"Find Me" I'm looking for the end of the road
And can't find it, all I see
Is fields of tall grass, no one in sight
Where?
Where is she? I run and run
And run some more
For miles I've gone, no one in sight
Where?
Where is she? Night falls, the sun has set
How many years have passed?
How much further can I run?
Hard to see...
Where...where is she? Fainting from hunger, thirst
Depressed, feeling loneliness
I cry out once more to the Lord
Can You hear me?
Where? Where is she? No more energy to move
No more questions
Because I'm unconscious
Pushed myself too hard I come to...moving
Back to the path
Already laid for me
In His arms, she will find me Written: October 31, 2006

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:56:56 MST

"Fight For What You Want" I can't see the end of the road
I don't know how things will turn out
But I've made up my mind to do this one thing
Not give up before I try I have a sense of peace
Even as I face uncertainty
I feel the smile on my face
Joy bubbling inside me Some people would say quit
Others would ask "Why try?"
I feel the doubt from their eyes
Sense the unbelief they hide I've read the scriptures that promise a lot
Heard the blessings that our here for us
I know what God can do in my life
I'll fight for a better today, a brighter tomorrow Written: September 27, 2006

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:55:40 MST

"Escape" I try to run
I try to hide
But I can't escape
In this cage I cry Time to stop running
Walk away from hiding
Or going around my problems
But facing them I'll find The peace
The joy
The freedom
I need inside Written: September 8, 2006

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:54:38 MST

"Shatter" In a huge room
White all around me
My dreams in front of me
I walk closer and knowingly stop
I can't go any further I stretch out my hand
To touch the glass
Separating me
From where I wanna be Tears roll down my face
As I fall to the floor
On my knees...crying
Feeling like I'm dying
It's right there, but I can't get there I tried a hammer
Hit it with chairs
Gave it all I got
But the glass is still there I pound my fists against
This unbreakable thing
Trapped behind a see-through
Fragile...wall Is this my sentence?
Am I serving time
For all the mistakes I made
While I was blind? I look at You
Feel Your presence
Sense Your love
Gain renewed hope, but why Now I know...one day...
Your hand in mine
You'll shatter the glass
No longer a prisoner
But a free man Written: June 26, 2006

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:52:35 MST

"Forgotten?" What do you do
when you feel lonely
...and all is quiet...
no one to talk to? You search for a person...
only to run into the wrong people
The outside looks good
...pleasant...welcoming But the inside is blemished
darker than you expected...
their heart not into God
as much as you thought It happens time after time
...after time
So...here you are again
...sitting alone Screams that are never heard...
crying without shedding a tear
For how many more years? Is God silent
...have you stepped out of place?
Or messed up so bad
not even He can save you? Left with no hope
...no strength...
faith diminished...
Jesus, save me again Written: March 7, 2006

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:50:27 MST

"All" There are parts of me I love
There are parts of me I hate
There are parts of me God loves
There are parts of me God hates
Then what does He do with me
Seeing I have good and bad in me?
He loves me anyway Written: December 23, 2005

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:48:34 MST

"Eternally" Jesus...
Why do people have to die?
Why do terrible things happen?
Why don't You save us from it all?
Why can't we just keep living here
After we're born
Without suffering and pain
Without lost and tragedy
Living together peacefully
And never growing old?
Do You have an answer for me?
"Earth is not your home
Heaven is what you're looking for
So stay close to Me
Because I want you to live your life
Eternally." Written: June 8, 2005

Blog Entry - November 23, 2007

Fri, 23 Nov 2007 05:46:57 MST

"Waiting" Do you know the pain I feel?
Do you know how much I hurt inside?
Do you know how many times
I thought it was you?
But it wasn't...still I have a rose
With no one to give it to
A heart...with no one to cherish it
A ring...with no one to wear it
Love...with no one to share it with
And no love in return I sit at the table alone
I stand in church alone
I talk to myself about you
Waiting, wondering when my dreams of us
Will come true I've stopped counting the days and months
As they go by
My hope is turning into a lie
I don't want to say what I'm thinking
I'm alone here forever
To the thought I can't surrender ...The frustration grows deep inside
I turn away...trying to hide
It haunts me in the daytime
And as I go to sleep at night
I want to cry
But my tears have run dry My heart is cold
My emotions are numb
My spirit is weak
Because you haven't come I expected you
I waited for you
I called for you
I loved you Only to find
I was blind
You only existed
In my mind Jesus...is this the end?
Am I out of time?
Too late...
To find the love of my life? Written: March 14, 2005